Rising from Ashes

In life I’ve been burned many times over but there’s a fun fact about ashes they don’t completely burn out, underneath all that ash there are embers. The cruel twisted world thought it had burnt me into powder but it underestimated that the ashes protected the embers that were still burning. I was able to use that ember to fuel me and fire me up with a new found passion. An ember if left it will turn into a raging fire mindless and out of control. I chose to learn how to direct this new found fire within me. It refueled thoughts and stirred things within me that I thought were dead or impossible to do. I have taken up sketching again, photography and graphic design. This fire in me has even given me the courage to try new things such as this blog. This redirecting of this fire didn’t happen overnight, it took time and I had to overcome obstacles. Initially this fire was anger and like a fire it consumed me for a long time. It took a lot out of me because like a fire gets depleted of oxygen. I had to learn to not react (and still learning) to things that I just had no control over. Again, it’s requires a lot of work to redirect thoughts and feelings into something more positive. One way I was able to gain ground was thinking of each of my girls and each overcame adversity. Each of my girls although they didn’t realize it, taught me to be less fearful and learn to take chances. Through their fearlessness I am learning to be fearless. I hope one day they read this post because I want to thank each of them for helping me grow and for stoking the fire in me when I thought there was nothing left but ashes.