held captive

You never hear of holding yourself captive but yet it happens. Fear seems to be one of many reasons why we hold ourselves captive. The brain is full or neurons and neurotransmitters that control every bodily function, it’s also like a computer hard drive storing memories, feelings, emotions and vast amounts of information. Sometimes the memories that are stored are too painful for some to cope with so they turn inward, shut down all emotions and feelings while simultaneously creating walls to keep the pain of this memory from dripping out into the active memory. It is there when captivity begins, those walls become prisons that some run into when life gets too hard. The mind is powerful and it can manifest anything, including creating an alternate reality of where hard painful memories don’t exist and are suppressed. We use our minds to shield ourselves from facing reality and from coping with whatever created that alternate reality. This alternate reality doesn’t only hide the painful things but also keeps things out and emotions in. The problem this wall/prison creates is the inability to be loved, the captive person cannot give love nor receive love. This prison hides all their emotions to the point where they no longer remember how to feel or express feelings creating this empty shell of a person. This empty shell can function like everyone else until something emotional happens where they recluse themselves in their mental prison and leaving those around them confused and hurt.