The Journey

I started this blog journey because I am dealing with things and was told to keep a journal. Realizing that were are all created to be social beings I decided to share my journey with others. Somewhere along my journey I convinced my self that I needed no one and that I could do life by myself. I had a rude awakening when I divorced after being married for 31 years. This was the scariest and most lonely time in my life. I had no one that I could reach out to. I found my self relying on my children to give me a place to live until I could figure out what to do. Having no money and no resources to fall back on made it very challenging to move on from loss. My children are my hero, they rescued me from despair and were my source of encouragement. They were the last people I expected to come to my rescue since I didn’t feel I was the best or nicest mom. It was a humbling experience to see that my children despite every adversity they could love unconditionally and be sympathetic to others especially me. Through them I saw that despite what crap life throws at you that you can still rise above it all and persevere to create whatever life you want for yourself. Inspired by their adversity I started sketching, creating logos and even resumed my photography. Life had beat me down to the point where I lost my passion and happiness to create. I’m still struggling through some things but now I use my projects to refocus my mind to what makes me happy. Another thing I have started is self loving by taking better care of myself, fixing my hair, soaking in a tub with a glass of wine, doing a mani-pedi and even playing with my make-up. I am always looking for ways to self improve myself so I always like to try different things such as going outdoors more, I have found that I really enjoy kayaking and going to the beach to enjoy the sun and breeze. Currently I am building the nerve to go hiking by myself my fear with that is that I might fall in to a ditch somewhere but I guess I can’t let fear rob me of enjoying life. So wish me luck on combating this fear, I’ll let you know how it goes.