crossroad

When I divorced I thought I would never open myself up to another. God had other plans, I met someone and fell in love. At first, all was great and I felt happier than I had for a long time. He awakened parts of me that were hidden and locked away for a long time. I took that leap of faith on him because I thought he was different and that he was serious about our relationship when he asked me to move in. I thought he was looking for someone to be a part of his life but clearly he's shown me that I am not the one. I misread the situation and it was not at all what it seemed. I am feeling as if he led me on and no longer wants me to be part of his life especially, after he expressed not having time for me and telling me I was not his priority. I’ve been pushed away emotionally, mentally, and sexually. I fear that he may have found some other interest and maybe currently pursuing that. There has never been any type of clarity or sharing of how he truly feels or any type of connection of emotions except for anger and annoyance . Most days, I don't even think he's happy to see me or even misses me, I feel like he sees me as a burden. After 5 years, I wasn’t expecting to be put into this position where I have to face this crossroad of whether to stay or to go? My person needs to undergo major emotional growth that he's not willing to do. All I ever wanted was to find my happily ever after and to be someone’s happily ever after too.