Loving through the pain

I personally was challenged giving my love through the pain. Again fear set it holding me back from healing. There was a part of me that could still love but minimally. I loved like I would a brother or a sister but as a lovers love that was challenging. A lovers love required me to be vulnerable and to open myself to the possibility of being hurt again but fear always was there making me sometimes too overly cautious. I took a leap of faith and opened up and took a chance at love again. First I took a chance on loving myself because I realized that I had to learn to love and what better subject to practice on than on myself. An epiphany hit me that I had to learn to love myself first before I could be able to love anyone else. I started by having a girl day where I dressed up, played with make-up and had a mani-pedi. Sometimes I just sit having some wine with dimmed lights and playing soft music. Other times I treated myself by going to a restaurant or just going shopping. I have since began sketching again, doing photography and soon will be trying my graphic designing again. Initially it was hard to love myself because I didn’t even know that was a thing but I now realize how important it is. The reason for is because you learn your value, self worth and what your talents are. It’s important to learn these things because it’s really easy to lose yourself in this world. You can easily forget that you are an individual that has wants and needs that have to be met first by self. Once you have mastered loving yourself then you will have and know the skills needed to love others.