lost mail piece

Have you ever waited for something anything, let's say a piece of mail, but it never comes. That's what it's like waiting on someone that seemingly is never going to show up. When they do show they aren't fully present or they only give or show a portion of themselves but never anything more. It's like a letter that comes with a slight tear in it, you try to peak inside but you can only make out a word or two but it isn't enough to make clear what it is all about. You eventually stop waiting for that piece of mail and you loose interest at the possibility of it ever showing up. That letter may show up when you’re no longer waiting for it when you needed it most. I guess what I am saying is I lost hope of it showing up and I am disappointed that it’s been lost blowing in the wind somewhere, blowing further and further away from where it should've been.